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Aug. 25th, 2010 04:46 pm[Filter: Royalty and Political Figures]
... yeah, so someone suggested I should do this a few months ago and I've been thinking about it a lot and nothing is getting better, so I just figured -- uh, why not?
Since the Honeysuckle Treason, all of it, I've really ... realized a lot about what it means to be in charge of people. Be a leader. And in Floran right now, I'm being that. My father is a weak King and the people need someone to rely on, and I'm doing everything that I can to be that person. I know I'm young. But they need somebody, and they're my people, and I really, really do feel like I owe it to them to try and be that somebody.
The hard thing is knowing how human you can be.
There's so much going on in my life! And I've always just written here about everything that goes through my head, for more than five years, now! And I liked that! But now I have to worry about what people think of me and and how I appear to them and image, and, and, I just don't know how much to write here! Is it okay to talk about how I don't know what the hell to do about Autumn hanging off my arm? Or about how I gave myself a bitch of a cut shaving this morning? Or how I can't seem to find a single pair of boots in the entire city that fit my stupid feet? I swear, they're like ten times bigger every morning ...
I just don't know. And I was wondering -- like, how do you all handle that? What do you think about it?
It's so complicated, being in charge.
... yeah, so someone suggested I should do this a few months ago and I've been thinking about it a lot and nothing is getting better, so I just figured -- uh, why not?
Since the Honeysuckle Treason, all of it, I've really ... realized a lot about what it means to be in charge of people. Be a leader. And in Floran right now, I'm being that. My father is a weak King and the people need someone to rely on, and I'm doing everything that I can to be that person. I know I'm young. But they need somebody, and they're my people, and I really, really do feel like I owe it to them to try and be that somebody.
The hard thing is knowing how human you can be.
There's so much going on in my life! And I've always just written here about everything that goes through my head, for more than five years, now! And I liked that! But now I have to worry about what people think of me and and how I appear to them and image, and, and, I just don't know how much to write here! Is it okay to talk about how I don't know what the hell to do about Autumn hanging off my arm? Or about how I gave myself a bitch of a cut shaving this morning? Or how I can't seem to find a single pair of boots in the entire city that fit my stupid feet? I swear, they're like ten times bigger every morning ...
I just don't know. And I was wondering -- like, how do you all handle that? What do you think about it?
It's so complicated, being in charge.
